They say that writing helps you thinking. I strongly agree. That’s perhaps why I take notes, keep diaries, write my thesis, etc. However, when I suddenly stopped writing today, I realised that I cannot think anymore. I think this is a sign of becoming or being a bookworm. I went in but I couldn’t get out anymore. I became very dependent on the stuff I supposed to use to only assist my work. If so, this is terribly unfortunate. A helpless and useless book worm was born today. It can either keep eating the books to survive in a miserable way or start a new life happy but die soon. Never to be a helpless and useless bookworm like this.
I thought I was going to work in a kindergarten after I graduate. I started to try to build a close relationship with kids. I tried to have different ways of talking to them – how to persuade them to do what I want them to do; how to stop their whining; how to make sure they learn stuff without fuss everyday. I said that I always want to go back to be a two year old. It seems that this would never happen to me again. When I play with kids, I sincerely know that I am having such a big responsibility of making sure everything is all right but have to pretend that I am one of them. I will be happy is they take me in. I learnt to take responsibility invisibly, and never behave like the one who is in charge. No one likes to be told off no matter how old they are. Also it’s very important to teach them to take the responsibility. It makes life much easier to let them understand how difficult your role is by putting them in your position. They rarely try to put you in a difficult situation on purpose but just won’t be as considerable as an adult to give you an easy time. No wonder one says you will understand your parents well once you become a parent.
