I haven’t apologised to mum that I’ve been really stubborn and ridiculously insisted on my life philosophy. Neverthelss, I did reflect on what I consider is right or wrong. Perhaps I am wrong. I think I am too overhelmed to discuss this kind of things with her recently and tried to avoid such kind of conversation. Actually I am running away. However, I really appreciated the effort she made to apologise to me. I received an email from her account, but indicated as from my friend: your mum asked me to told u that she wants to apologise to u about what she was saying earlier…best wishes, your friend…As she said it’s not easy for a mum to apologise to a child. She did! Not a surprise to me, because she is a super cool mum.
The other day, she told me: oh, my baby, u know, u sound exhausted. u were always cheerful! something wrong? Yes, my voice is getting worse and worse. silent…she is not asking for anything. I know what she wants me to do. She wants me to live happily in a very relaxed way. I will try, mum. I indeed feel tired and exhaused.
When I changed my subject to education three years ago, I never thought that the way of conducting research could be so differently. I just wanted to change my researching topics. However, in order to explore such issues, I have to choose the best means to pursue it. The sciencfic methods thus seems a lameless effort in dealing with real-world issues. I have been saying that I gradully learned that my way of doing research changed and I am now following social science research methodology. Until today, I realised that it was not an easy job. Science students have always been arrogant and overlooked the rigour of social science research. I was one of them. Shame on me. Social science research in fact has to be conducted in such a rigorous and severe way.
